free will vs. destiny

the day we talked about this my brain was definitely in a different place and my thought were not coming together very well. Now that ive had time to really think about it i think im a spectrum person, and i do consider myself to be religious. the reason i think its spectrum is because when i was thinking about personal experiences my life just seemed to be half and half. I was adopted when i was three and a half and before that basically had a terrible life. My birth mom was on drugs and would disappear for weeks at a time and leave me with my grandma. i was adopted into my birth moms sisters family and now have 4 older brothers and two stable parents. I think it was my "destiny" to be adopted and live with a caring family, but i think it is free will to act the way i do even though my childhood wasnt so great. I choose to not get involved with drugs and be associated with them.